Saturday, March 27, 2010

awakening.

ive beeen sooo busy lately. its crazy, 3 hour sleep nights, shit loads of homework, unnessisarry dramaaaa, of yeah, and binging. like allll of that is over now, and its time to starrrrrrrrrvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i so miss that empty, lite, strong feeeling.

i jsut worked out and burned 602 caloriesss and hopefulllly will lose some over night.
-i made a promis to myself today. i promis to be the skinniest girl in my school. skinnier then everyone. i want to look so skinny it makes some people gag. i want the teachers to awe in amazment and disgust, and run to the counselor to help me. the counselor wont do shit. i dont need help. i will be perfect. i will be the skinniest girl in school. i swear to it.
i mean, im not happy at all at school. i hate everyone. i have a lot of friends, but behind our "friendship" everyone thinks im a fucking slut. which im not. at all. and guys just talk to me to get in my pants. its so fucking annoying. none of them know how to have a compasionate relationship. thats all i want. fuck it.

im too mad to type right nowww, but all i can think about it walking into school, in that fucking little ugly kilt they make us wear everyday, with the blue sweater that reads (the albany academies), the white polo button downs, and the sperry topsiders, and watching people just stare. at. me.
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6 comments:

  1. if life gives you lemons, don't eat themMarch 27, 2010 at 9:13 PM

    I hate school too. I also want to be the thinnest and beautiful girl at my school. Unlike you, I don't have any friends, at least, not any genuine friends. Everyone around me is too fake and back-stabbing.

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  2. fastinggirlMarch 27, 2010 at 10:31 PM

    i hate my school too! i have like no friends :(

    but i'm totally with you about being the skinniest girl in school!!!!

    WOOOOOT!

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  3. UnknownMarch 28, 2010 at 3:08 PM

    I hated my school too. I get homeschooled now :). Don't have to be tempted by lunchtime yay!

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  4. AnonymousMarch 29, 2010 at 8:21 AM

    I'll be the skinniest girl in my univ too :D

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  5. AshleyMarch 29, 2010 at 6:59 PM

    whats a univ? uniform? haha im so dumb

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  6. AnonymousMay 10, 2010 at 5:33 PM

    I have uniforms too, but at least your's is kinda cute schoolgirlish it sounds...we have ugly polyester khaki pants, polos, basically golfing clothes where everyone-me, my friends, those seniors by the autobody class-feel fat in them.

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