i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it so much. it makes me so mad! like i starved for 24 hours and got NO WHERE. its so depressing. im doing a school project on anorexia (thats what i got assigned. hmm, ironic?). its kind of awkward because my teacher said "you can just tell us about your experiances!" cool, what am i some science experiment? like noooo.
so today i was doing great, thinking day 2 of fasting lets go! then i went to lunch because my friend draggged me there, i just wanted to stay in the library and read my book and finish unfinished homework. and it was noddles with cheese. i mean, who doesnt like cheese and noodles?! i was so depressed while/after eating it. but i ate all of it and had an orange and bread! ughhhhhh but at the same time i like couldnt stop eating :( i feel so low and worthless. fuck it. i want to be skinny and i will be skinny. i will lose the weight and be double digits. i will complete this and survive.
ugh i know!! i starved for a whole week and gained it all back in like two days. and your teachers know you're anorexic?? did you tell them or did they just know? i thought about telling my art teacher once, and my spanish teacher, i got assigned to do a report on this spanish chick who died of anorexia last year and i really wanted to tell. lol
ReplyDeleteoh my god I hate that so much! I hate it when one's hard work and progress is ruined! it just makes one so depressed.
ReplyDeleteyou'll be ok, it happens a lot, and will continue to happen but you'll get there eventually.
ReplyDeleteIt's the number one thing in life I hate ><
ReplyDeleteLike : I starved, give me a break! and you feel so depressed then...but like whitney said, it happens, you just have to go on, and think about your goal! :D
i know i know, lol thank you alllll. i just have to look forward and stop dweellling on the mistakes.
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