sudden urge. weirrrdddd.

I cAn NoT wAiTtttTTttttt until i reach my goal weight. its completely out there. like double digits and alllllll. the thinspo is crazy good and i can never get enough, but who can?

sosososoooo i read skinnny bitch starting yesturday and i finished today. it was like my 30th time reading it. i could very strongly recomend it.

i satarted wondering how long im going to have to do this anorexia deal. i mean, it just came to me and i wonder if this disease that i hate. will ever leave. iiiii think i have bipolar because up above i was blabbing about how i "cant wait to lost 20 pounds!" like wtf. youre messed up ash. its whaterverrr.
tomorrow i go back to school, i just had like 2 weeks off and im dreading this. the only good thing to having school is i dont have to eat until my mom picks me up which is at likeeee 6. and by the time i get home its like 7. i hate that drive from albany to saratoga. but my school is so fucking competitive. like an all girls private school. but i do have classes with the guys academy side accross the street so thank fucking god i know a lot of guys because all of the girls have ana or mia but they will NEVER admit to it. its fucking messed up. the cafetirea is always empty, except for like the little kids that dont know anybetter.
i read in skinny bitch that diet sodas that have aspartame in it, causes cancer, soooo many (92) other sideeffects. but ONE REALLY CAUGHT MY EYE. it causes weight gain. i will deffinetly be cutting back on the coke zero. fuck that shit was my liffeeeee.





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