umm so you like cant really read what the picture sayssss. but i wrote down monday through friday. and what i will eat that day, the workout plan, theme of blog to blog about, kind of thinspo, and what to resist that day. (what i usually cave in on.... :( )
so i like havent blogged in SOO LONNNGG. and no one comments me anymore :( but its okay ahah i cant really control it. ive been realllly bingy lately. and they stop at midnight tonight. im allowing 300 calories a day. thats it. my birthday is sooo soon - may 4. and i already went shopping with my mom and got things too smalll soo that i can lose weight and fit into them! having cute clothes that are way too small is the best motivation. as of now i am a size 2. I NEED TO BE SIZE 00.
if i dont feel the pain, struggle, and feeling skinnny and thin that anorexia gives me in 6 months. i will kill myself. because i already endure the pain and weakness and feeling horribly about myself. but i really can not take this anymore.
I did the same thing in my weight loss journal. Critisizing yourself on paper and writing down exactly what you have to do really helps, I found. Like, thanks to that new system, I managed to keep my intake below 500 calories a day this whole week!
ReplyDeleteGood luck, hun! We can do this. We are strong.