1. so last night was the commencement dance. its the last dance of the year, and i go to a really small private school in albany (albany academy) and everyone there is so close. im only a freshman- well now a sophomore. lol but everyone in every grade is really close. my best friend is a jr and my second is a senior. because my class.suckkksksss! anyways im going to miss the seniors soo much next year. ----but back to the dance. basically its slutfest. everyone gets spray tan and we all wear slutty black dresses. so me and my friend were wandering the country club of troy- where the dance was. and tis really olld with lots of rooms and i found a bottle of vodka and chugged.half.the.bottle.straight. it was bad. but it made the night so much bettter. hahah we were soooo drunk but so was everyone so it didnt matter. but later that night i was with friends and they were passed out and i went on faceook and leaft videos for people, wrote on there walls, and it was so bad. now im like the school slut when in reality im really not. awesome.
2. im supposed to turn in all my text books but i lost 2 of them. and my dad was screaming, and ithought he was about to hit me no joke i was so scared. but then all of a sudden 20 minutes later he comes in my room while im crying my eyes out and looking at thinspo- what i do when im pissed. and he was like ohhhh im so sorry sweetie. TYPICAL WILLIAM BECKER. just appologizes right after he screams like a fucking maniac!!! i hate him. i cant even describe my hate towards him. he makes me was so die. when i look at him i lose my appetite. its sick, it really is.
3. this all happened last night, and this morning. to shake it off and get some good feeling hormones in me, i went for a 3 mle run. it made me realize that i can do this. the run wasnt even hard, and i was going pretty fast. i just wish i could have a concave stomach. mines almost fflat!!! like about a centemeter more and it will be perfect!!!! i cant wait!!!! and after running, the last thing on my mind is food. and the diet pills gave me so much energy while i was running!!
OMFG, I HATE my dad, like that, too! Like, I cannot even describe my hatred for my dad, there's too much. He pisses me off so much. I can't even eat around him. That's how uncomfortable he makes me. He makes me so mad and depressed that whenever he is around, I feel like I never want to eat again.
ReplyDeleteyea my dad loses his temper and has hit me before. just the other day he grabbed hold of my arm and bruised it!! thn he acts all sweet. i get the whole act thing. oh and vodka-i got soooo wasted on it a few weeks back and damn i was puking all night. im not so sure i can drink it ever agin. haha =]
ReplyDeleteomg finally someone to relate<3 all of my friends are lik ebest friends with their dads and i get that they love them but it pisses me off ebcause i cant talk to them about it . thank you <3
ReplyDeleteand hahaha i know. well im pissed because all of the pictures got on facebook....and no one will delete them.